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[28 Jun 2008|11:15pm]

 day 3 of fast was SUCCESS. but i think my family is catching on, so i said that id eat later and just now i dumped 2 yoghurts and oatmeal in the trash that way went they say that i havent eaten i can just say i ate that even though i didn't. that should keep them at bay for awhile. and im down another 2 lbs cause i did a lot of exercise and no food. im so proud of myself for having control back. well its late and i may have to work tomorrow. good luck on ur weight loss!!
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[28 Jun 2008|12:12pm]

 im megan and 17 yr old. ive been anorexic/bulimic for 4-5 years. heres my stats:
CW:127(was 130)

right now i skipped breakfast and am only drinking water and diet coke. i weighed myself and after taking laxatives, diuretics, and fasting im down to 127 lbs!! only 30 more lbs and maybe more : )) hope everyone is having a good day. 

STAY THIN THINK THIN thanks for all the help and text me for help if u need it 5172304173. good luck everyone!! 

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[27 Jun 2008|07:54pm]

Hi^^ My name is Cynthia and I'm 16..I started my disorder when i was like 11...Today I haven't eaten a thing! I have had three cups of hot chocolate and some orange juice...had dinner but now its in a coffee cup because i spat it out....ummm so here are my stats and stuff...

H:5'1 1/2 "
CW:114 (I think..gross!)
GW 1: 105
GW 2: 100
GW 3: 95
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[27 Feb 2007|08:12pm]

Eating disorders linger so long undetected eroding the body in silence and then they strike the secrets out, you’re dying.
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[26 Feb 2007|11:45pm]

Eating disorders are addictions you become addicted to the number of effects. The two most basic and important: the pure adrenaline that kicks in when you’re starving- you’re high as a kite, sleepless, full of a frenetic unstable energy and the heightened intensity of experience that eating disorder initially induce such as a sense of power and control
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[25 Feb 2007|03:07pm]

i have a hunger
twisting my stomach into knots
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[25 Feb 2007|10:05am]

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funny quote [06 Oct 2006|11:26am]

went and saw the devil wears prada last night..

and this was priceless:

Andrea: “Doesn’t anybody eat around here?"

Nigel: "Not since two is the new four and zero is the new two;"

Andrea: " Well, I’m a six;"

Nigel: "Aha, the new fourteen.”
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[29 Sep 2006|11:54pm]

"someone I once knew" by dead celebrity status

She wasn't born anorexic, but nowadays she suffers,
staring at these half-naked stars on magazine covers.
feeling pressured by the public.
She only weighs 90 pounds but still sucks in her stomach.
On the inside she's dieing, lying to herself, thinking:
- 5 more pounds won't jeopardize my health.
One day she might just collapse, she can't avoid it.
Too many sleepless nights spent bent over a toilet.
Spewing vomit, like she was an alcoholic.
Praying to a God she never believed in to stop it.
Hasn't eaten in weeks, drinks water by the heaps.
Now she looks like the skeleton she sees in her closet.
So close to death she can taste it, body looks wasted.
Hates life, hates you, hates the way she looks naked.
Now she's feeling drowsy, lousy,
thinking maybe this world's better off without me
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[28 Sep 2006|09:35pm]

I will be thin and pure like a glass cup. Empty. Pure as light. Music. I move my hands over my body --my shoulders, collar bone, my rib cage, my hip bones like part of an animal skull, my small thighs. In the mirror my face is pale and my eyes look bruised. My hair is pale and thin and the light comes through. I could be a lot younger than seventeen. I could be a child still, untouched.

---from the book, "The Hanged Man" by Francesca Lia Block.
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[25 Sep 2006|10:10pm]

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Bionic Eyes - Liz Phair [23 Sep 2006|12:15am]

As I got light as a feather,
they got stiff as a board - 
I can't feel any more,
but I can fake it forever...

*Liz Phair, Bionic Eyes*
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hey im new [20 Aug 2006|01:40am]

"As a woman I was taught to always be hungry.
Women are well acquainted with thirst."

-bikini kill (feels blind)

i think it was also in a hole song, but im not sure which one came first
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One of my favorites... [14 Aug 2006|07:38am]

"I want to be so light, that when I dance on freshly fallen snow, I won't mar its virgin beauty"
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Garbage - "Bleed Like Me" [23 Jul 2006|01:25pm]

[ mood | bored ]

"She starves herself to rid herself of sin...and the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin..."

That's the most relevant part, but I like the whole song...

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New To Community!! [08 Jul 2006|06:28pm]

I'm 22 and ED-NOS "up and down" (i guess you can say) for i honestly dont even know how long...i've had issues since i was very young and dont really know WHEN it started qualifying as a disorder lol...complicated story...if you want to add me as a friend this is my "other" journal and i'm always open to new friends and looking for support so just look at my interests and if you think you wouldn't hate me feel free to add me and i'll add back!!

I love the idea of this community...quotes/lyrics are great...I have a lot that could apply but for now i'll just put the lyrics to one song.

I don't know if anyone's ever heard it before, but it's called "4 st. 7lb." and it's by the manic street preachers...The guy who wrote it is rumored to have had an eating disorder but wrote the song from a female perspective. 
Those are the full lyrics to the song...For my icon i put the picture of the guy that wrote it (obsessed, much??)...I bolded the parts that i repeat/sing to myself the most...
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[04 Jun 2006|10:59pm]

hey i'm new! my name's rachel... i've been looking for a community that will really inspire me because i've kind of lost the way abit recently & i'm so disgusted with myself i won't even get on the scales :S

anyway really looking forward to meeting everyone... this website always helps me (sorry if someone's already pointed it out)


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[02 Nov 2005|10:19am]
[ mood | blank ]

Hi im a newbe lol ... well iv had an ed for a while kinda well i dont want to say off and on but iv had my ups and downs which im sure everyone has... umm im 17 im from st.paul,mn im a senior in high school and im currently around 120-125 i dont know it depends the scale because the scale at my dads house says im like 117 and the scale at the school says im 120 and the scale at the docter says im 125 unfortunetly i think the one at the doctor is right.... but yeah well i dont know my fav qoet of all time is " ANNA IS NOT A DISEAS ITS A LIFE STYLE" I know a lot of people dont agree but this helped me a lot when i first became ana... well i hope i meet new people if anyone wants to email me its ashlen2000us@yahoo.com id appreciate it... umm as soon as i can ill post a picture.. o yeah if anyone can help me figure how to because im not sure how to post a pic....for my screenname...


ana luv~~~~~~~~~~~


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[22 Sep 2005|02:01pm]

Okay two things my bf knows how obsessed I am with green tea and on the news yesterday they said green tea brings out your birth defects and genetic flaws, like if your family is prone to cancer too much green tea can make u more prone to it. Anyone else hear that? It was the first I've heard. I love green tea.

Second, today is my 21st birthday and last night I got really drunk. I dont drink usually, the last time I drank anything was one Mikes Hard Ice Tea on 4th of July. I didn't eat anything all day except a weight watchers pizza ( 400ish calories) and I had a lot of shots and a lot of water. I kept peeing and peeing last night. This morning I was three pounds lighter. I wonder if it has to do with the drinking. I have never lost that much weight in one day except with a diet pill. Anyone have any ideas?


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sex, consumption, & vanity [26 Aug 2005|08:53pm]

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[07 Jul 2005|12:53am]

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[22 May 2005|03:49pm]

I just joined and this song triggers me a lot so here ya go

Feed Me By Juliana HatfieldCollapse )
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[09 May 2005|09:47pm]

quotes under the cut!Collapse )
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[08 May 2005|09:50am]


1)How old were you when you got an ed?
2)How do you get along with your mom?
3)Does she ever call you fat?
4)HAS she ever called you fat?
5)On a scale of 1-5, how would you rate your self esteem?
6)How much support do you get from your family and friends?
7)Do you want to stop having your ED?

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[16 Mar 2005|05:54am]


Hey I'm Col.. ed-nos.. thirteen.. here's a song by Fiona Apple

Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad , oh it kills.
Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these hands are too shaky to hold

                 WHEN IT COSTS TOO MUCH TO LOVE...

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Glittering. Glittering and digesting. [02 Mar 2005|02:09pm]

Listen, I recently started this journal, and made it friends only--it's SPECIFICALLY an ED journal, and I would love for any of you to comment to be added.
I am having trouble and would appreciate any support I can get, and will return the favor to anyone who needs it!
Good luck girls ( and guys :)
(no, in this case, Ana doesn't stand for anorexia--people always get confused when I write that--it's my name. Ironic, eh?)
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FASTING!!!! [03 Jan 2005|05:53pm]

Ok so Im so sick of myself so Im fasting!!!! Kick my ass into gear let me tell ya! So, today until Thursday, so solids...just water, green tea, and if i really get too weak and need some sort of cals=soup...thats it! under 200 a day! i have to! i just need to. If anyone wants to join me please do :) wish me luck girls.
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FASTING!!!! [03 Jan 2005|01:31pm]

Ok I've had it with myself and thats it, Im fasting!!!! Only water, green tea, and if I feel really weak-I'll drink a soup thing...at the most 80 cals! Sooo wish me luck and if anyone wants to join please do!
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[27 Dec 2004|11:24pm]

Think higher of youself!! Your TOO GOOD to put that SHIT in your body.
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[27 Dec 2004|11:53am]

this is from Taking Back Sunday, but it could fit what we are feeling...

"its times like these, when silence means everything, and no one is to know about this..."
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